Feel like I have wasted a week. What do you when you run out of steam or passion for something? I should be studying for exams but haven’t been, I’ve had a look at some things but not proper study and basically wasted the week just gone simply because I can’t be fucked. My drive has shifted to my job. I want to sink my energy into my job but I don’t want to give up on university, I need to get it done. But I have got to the end of my first year and already feel like I need a break.
I feel I can accomplish a lot more at my job than at uni, even though I’ve tried to tell myself complete the study because that will help securing better jobs. But my ability in a workplace environment to get shit done (and get paid for the work I’m doing) means more to me.
Played some games tonight with some mates which was fun. My next exam is on Monday. I only need to pass 20% of the exam to pass the unit so if I fuck this up I’m a complete idiot. My final exam is the Friday and that’s my most important unit, the accounting unit. I need to pass 50% of the exam to pass the unit and I just feel under prepared and I have got shit results all year just because I’m can’t be fucked sinking the time in.
I try to just think in the long term…if I don’t pass the units the only real downfall is I’ve just wasted a bunch of money paying for a unit I didn’t complete and that’s it. I stress so much about it but in the greater scheme of life why do I care so much. I’ve already stated I care more about working than study and I want to invest my energy in my job…
I’m going to bed so I can struggle to sleep due to stress, feel like shit tomorrow while trying to study for an exam Monday.
Happy Life 